The Universe is shouting at me something but I ‘m having trouble choosing and deciding !
I’m asking myself what I will do in the future but I m not sure yet yesterday I read the book Weekend with Leprechaun by Klaus Joehle the book was helpful but it doesn’t answer my question, what I will do when my current projects are achieved. They are things that seem joyful to do but may be they are an escape and also those things don’t feel right, here is the main probabilities and possibilities I’m observing:

A couple of month ago a girl told me (she is a model for tv commercials) that I should be model for tv commercial, she even proposed help to select an agency for me, in the same period I went to a party and I put the pictures on a webpage for my friends to see, the webpage was picked up by the friends of my friends which are students in media and communication , they commented that I have some kind of star appeal an that I should play in tv commercials (since there is no film industry in my country, you do the tv ads)

Doing that can be fun and an easy way to make money and pictures, I love taking pictures and I like being on pictures however it doesn’t feel right and it is totally foreign and divorced to what I’m doing now.

All of this happened a few months ago, last week I went to visit a friend and he suggested that instead of using a nickname for my writing (Tortue); I should use my real name and put my pictures with my writing, he said that my popularity will increase instantly and that I can make easy money out of that, he even proposed to call his girlfriend , she works RTL - an european network of tv channels ( she is at the Plug TV/M6 channel here in belgium), so I could be interviewed about my writing in a show.

After, the discussion with my friend I decided to start a new website with my real name I called the friend again if he know someone to take pics for me, but my friend wasn’t available, now, a guy I haven’t talked with for years called and guess what he is the fashion photography business, so when I will see him monday, I will ask if he can help with my new website.

However, my friends I have to tell that all of this doesn’t feel right to me , I don’t know exactly anyway, may be, you can give some suggestions

you live in Belgium? What are you doing for your living now? You aren't a Belgian right?

You told once that people were very attracted to you while sending love. But are you not just very attractive, like Brad Pitt or so? Lots of people feel attracted to Brad Pitt, but possibly he does not send love at all.

All I can suggest you is to follow your heart..

Doesn't feel right then ask your heart not your mind why that is, maybe your focus is on it too much step back and let it go then the answer will come. Your friends cannot give you the answers only you can do that. Remember the easy thing or way is not nesaccarily the correct way of ones heart. WHAT BRINGS JOY TO YOU "thats the question and the answer"

Well, I have Belgian citizenship but I’m not born here, for a living I own a farm of websites that bring some income.

Now, about the attraction thing, I read the interview of a manager from a well known male model agency and he said that a man that can be a model is not someone you see with your eyes but someone you feel when you enter a room, you feel him rather than seeing him , he is the man that can be a model. You see I believe it is all about the vibrations we emit, you see the male mannequins for the shops they don’t know how to build a good looking man because there is no convention of what a good looking man is supposed to be add to that the fact that mannequins do not emit vibes.

You may have heard of this study about male stars look-alike people don’t find them attractive, ….they don’t emit the same vibes than their stars.

You can try this during 5 to 10 minutes tell yourself that you are extremely attractive until you convinced yourself that it is the true after a week, you will notice that people will respond to your new vibrations then try the same experience but instead tell yourself that you are extremely ugly or unattractive and you will see that people will comment how unattractive you are, it is all about the vibes we emit more than the way we look I believe.




It can be joyful, I don’t know I lack a bit of clarity I will go with the flow, if it feel painful or un-nice, I will quit.
Today, I prepared a new website about me with my pictures and some writing about working with love and it indeed was joyful, after that I went shopping and I felt more relax I was nice to people , I smiled to them naturally like a second nature and I even used nickname when I interacted with some of them it something I usually don’t do with strangers, I called one of them ‘chief’, I don’t do that usually.


Thanks for your advises

Do you mind to show that website Tortue?

Hi Shalala, I will post the address of the website when it will be completed, I'm having great fun
doing that website, I'm currently playing with Photoshop , it is months I havent play seriously with
that software. As I see it destination are just signpost to other journeys, the journey matter most than
the destination.

I was thinking that you say doing work related to working with love brings you joy, have you thought about doing seminars, talks or such things as this maybe this is where you would find your purpose and your joy.

Tortue,
I think Roberta has a great idea there... you should explore it!

Here's a great book to help you remember your soul purpose:

http://www.whatsuponplanetearth.com/SPbook.htm

Yes, Tortue, I support your friend's opinion about using your reall name and photo. Greate idea! I will also do it more. So what's your name? Mine is Kostia Kovalenko! -- maybe I'll spell it this way. Also you can upload your photo to this forum to use it a avatar picture.

I also thought these days that it's important to pick what you want and be persistent in it. Not only persistant but also initiative and pursue it actively.

Look at myself -- I found Klaus back in 1998 but his first book in Russia was published by a big publisher only in 2005. Looking back at the years 1999-2004 I see now that I was pretty unsure of things and I acted unsurely and I wasn't active. I took an approach "Let things come together on their own". Now I think that I could do much more for these books and in a much shorter time.

It was just enough to do a little each day. The most important thing -- to make strategic plans and following them day after day. A whole lot of very nice things can be done this way!

But how to pick what you want?
1. You mentioned "Leprechaun" book by Klaus Joehle this is one book to consider.
2. But also -- I would recommend using the idea Klaus mentioned some time back -- searching for things than feel joyful to you.
3. Also I would recommend using the process from "Money is Love" book by Klaus. "Creating" ... millions really a great idea! (I picked a number $40 million!!!

Finally, I think there are so much joyful probabilities.

since a few weeks, I have ideas for a novel or something that can be turned to a filmscript. This is joyful I had a screenwriting course.

Teaching the working with love in various part of the world can be joyful too after all I'm fluent in spanish, french and english.

Doing the acting/modeling can be also joyful under the circumstance that it is not degrading to my person.

What will be truly joyful will be to do all the above, breaking all the rules of how I'm supposed to fit in society be an inspiring rebel in sense like this I'm sure I will have a good laugh in the process and I wont have regret of missing one of the above.

I will re-read the Leprechaun book I think.

There is something I forgot in my initial post , 2 weeks ago or so, I met with a friend I havent seen for years in the supermarket she is a professional actress and she invited me to go see her at her Tango class, which is ...........in building number 13 in my own street, I live in building number 6! I didnt take the offer yet....however, around the same period I met with another friend I havent seen for years in another supermarket and you will never guess...........she is also a professional actress and she is also a tango teacher.

I'm not quite sure what the Universe is shouting at me with such synchronicities.

Hi Torque!

In the last years I began looking at the synchronicities -- as a measure of the level of my opennes to the world. When I'm "very good" (know what I want and do it in a very nice way) -- I see lots of synchronicities. I don't see them as a signs directing me to do something. I just see them as signs that reflect back to me my good condition.

You are fluent in Spanish. Would you like to inform Spanish speaking people that a great book on Love is out. "The Messenger" is published in Spanish language -- "El Poder Del Amor: El Mensajero". But I don't speak this language, and until now we had nobody on our team who would promote it in Spanish. (Our page in Spanish.)

Klaus and Roberta have already gotten first message from a reader of Spanish book -- in Spanish! And I see a note from a reader in the bookshop too.

*We could make a section of this forum for Spanish-speaking readers...
*I would be nice to have a small video greeting for the Spanish speakers with few things on love and "The Messenger" book. We would place it on youtube.com and make a link to it from our site and would make links from it to our sites.

So I'll repeat that right now the model I use is:
Synchronicities don't rule what I'm to do. They are just signs that I'm acting cool.
I decide what I want and I go for it. If I do it in a cool way -- I begin seeing synchronicities.

So my understanding is: you are riding a wave right now. Keep riding it, do the things you'd like to do (even if they seem like big shots) -- I've tried it and it's fun.

Thanks for hangin out with us!

With love,
Kostia